Sunday, February 26, 2012

Pause then Rewind....

Hi again!! It's been a bit since I've last posted. Work has been keeping me busy and tired all at the same time, and my husband has been working odd hours compared my schedule so it's been tough trying to spend time together. So, unfortunately my posting has severely lacked, but I'm still here!! I kind of just wanted to post a quick update since  my last post. I did finally get my books I had been waiting for (I actually just ordered some more today!) and have definitely enjoyed starting to delve into them.

Then I went through a period last week where I was getting slightly overwhelmed with all the material I was absorbing and trying to figure out: well, what exactly is my path going to look like? I have a feeling this question and those similar cross a young witch's (or Wiccan/Pagan/whatever you refer to yourself) mind quite often and possibly many times in the length of time they are on their path. So, I stopped and took a few steps back. I thought of what I really wanted to get out of my path and my spirituality and what that would look like for ME. For a long time, I've always done things for others, in their ways, to their liking and finally I have something that is truly ME and MY doing.

I have so many interests in different areas from spell work to crystals, herbs, tarot, divination, spirit work...the list really goes on and on from there and I'm sure will continue to grow as I continue to learn. I found myself wanting to take in information from every aspect, but I soon wore myself out trying to keep up. I sat with myself one day, lit a candle and burned some of my favorite incense and thought of what would be the best thing to start with. I came up with not one of those items mentioned above, but something more important that once is mastered, will lead to all the things above and more. I felt I really need to work on my mediation and visualization skills. I'm the person who can never quite turn their head off, and if I want to be successful in my magick, I need to be able to be successful in getting to that state that allows me to be.

So, I've rewound myself and have started to focus strictly on my mediation, visualization, and being able to get myself to that subconcious state that is needed to be successful in magick and on this path. I'm still reading my many books, gaining knowlege, and taking notes for my eventual Book of Shadows, but I'm also taking my time with the basics and fundamentals of what I feel is important to me. What is right for me is right....because it's right for me!

Blessed Be!!

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Another Beautiful Day!!

Hello friends, if you are out there today, it's me again :) As I'm sitting waiting for eyes to adjust back to normal (eye doctor visit today) I thought I would put together a quick post. I'm still waiting for my books to arrive via mail, but I'm so excited to re-dedicate myself to my studies. I keep listening for a delivery truck but I have a sneaking feeling that they aren't quite ready to make their appearance.

Something you guys may not know is that I have a garden down in my basement! Here in Colorado we have quite the short growing season and my husband and I have a commitment to healthy eating and making good, healthy choices for our bodies and our family. This morning I was able to harvest our first baby greens for a salad and a few bok choy leaves that were weighing down the plant. We also have an edamame plant, red chard and a cherry tomato variety. I will post a few pictures soon when some of the plants get a little larger and the greens make a come back from their morning harvest.

Working in our little garden, even if it is indoors for the time being because of geographical location, I still find something very calming and satisfying that is involved with helping these little plants germinate from seed. You get to be involved in every little process. I think this is something I need to further reflect on in my life. Maybe it would be a good topic for a meditation today?

Well, that's it for today, next time I write hopefully my new books have arrived!! I hope everyone has a blessed and beautiful day! Blessed Be!

Sunday, January 22, 2012

Time has passed....quickly!

Hi everyone! It's been quite sometime since I have posted, my apologies. Life seems to have a way of getting a bit overbearing and taking up more of my time! Things have finally seemed to have settled a bit as I get comfortable in my new job and juggling all the housework and spending time with the husband. As a result, I didn't leave myself time to work on me and my magic and have found that I need to come back to it. I feel like a piece of me missing and I feel those negative, dark, thoughts and feeling creeping back into my subconcious. I had been doing so well changing my outlook on life and I believe my concentration on magic and exploring myself truly was helping with this. Some of my books I have downloaded onto my e-reader, but have found that I wish to have about 2 or 3 books in paper form. There's just something about being able to physically handle a type of book. It feels more powerful to me. This week I will go out and get these books and some supplies that I will need early on. I plan to re-dedicate myself to the craft and to my path this week and get back on track with my spiritual exploration.

I hope all of you had a wonderful Yule season and that 2012 is treating you well so far! Blessed be!